(all that you let me be)/you say you don't want it again and again but you don't really mean it
just got my measly forty one dollar check and am on an epic quest of going cross-valley for it, job inquiry, cashing, home- owe half to james. The positive of jake living there is he gets the brunt of nit picking and scolding. once james told me i'm wanting to be this&that (specifics omitted) but i'm not, i'm just a girl. That was so offensive to me. I rail against being ordinary, which has been positive and negative, though many would see most of the "things" negative. Eye'd die to have a story. But at least i have complication. Simplicity is boring. And contradicts my self-image to which i cling.